"Why can't that be me?"I'm left to wonder why I can't be pregnant too.
I guess I have to wait for my time to come.
Day 6 of Current cycle. Approximately 10 days to ovulation.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Another Slight Blow
This morning, D told me that I am going to be an aunt. His brother's wife, my sister-in-law, is pregnant. I am definitely excited for them, and very happy to be an aunt for the first time, but I am partially sad too. They have been sort of trying for quite a long time now, and they definitely deserve it, but I can't help but feel like,
I guess I have to wait for my time to come.
Day 6 of Current cycle. Approximately 10 days to ovulation.
I guess I have to wait for my time to come.
Day 6 of Current cycle. Approximately 10 days to ovulation.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
The Beginning
My husband "D" and I have been trying to have a baby for about 4 or 5 months now. We have been married for 3 1/2 years, and have been very consciously waiting to have a baby. We decided early on that we wanted to wait a few years before having children because we wanted to enjoy ourselves and get to know one another better before adding children into the mix. We finally decided, over much deliberation, that we were ready to have a baby. Much to my dismay it has not been as fruitful an event as I hoped.
I was unaware that trying to have a baby means that month after month you are waiting hopefully that you are pregnant only to have your great aunt flow come to town. For me, my periods are terrible. They are heavy, and very uncomfortable. I am often sick to my stomach, sometimes vomiting, on the first and sometimes second day of menstruation. So, after hoping and praying that I am pregnant all month long, by the time my period shows up, I am devastated.
The last few months have been exceptionally hard. I feel sick and miserable and on top of that I feel almost as if I've lost a baby I never had. I find it difficult that many early pregnancy symptoms are relatively close to pre menstrual symptoms. Tender breasts, bloating, irritability, emotional, etc. all of these are symptoms of both menstruation and early pregnancy.
This month I was almost sure I was pregnant. My cycle has been fluctuating, but usually landing on shorter than longer. However, this month it was exactly 30 days. That was Friday the 15th.
So, I am starting this blog to reach out to others who might also be going through the same issue.
If nothing else, I hope it will be good therapy for me to get it off my chest.
As of right now it's day 5 of current cycle. Approximately 11 days to ovulation.
I was unaware that trying to have a baby means that month after month you are waiting hopefully that you are pregnant only to have your great aunt flow come to town. For me, my periods are terrible. They are heavy, and very uncomfortable. I am often sick to my stomach, sometimes vomiting, on the first and sometimes second day of menstruation. So, after hoping and praying that I am pregnant all month long, by the time my period shows up, I am devastated.
The last few months have been exceptionally hard. I feel sick and miserable and on top of that I feel almost as if I've lost a baby I never had. I find it difficult that many early pregnancy symptoms are relatively close to pre menstrual symptoms. Tender breasts, bloating, irritability, emotional, etc. all of these are symptoms of both menstruation and early pregnancy.
This month I was almost sure I was pregnant. My cycle has been fluctuating, but usually landing on shorter than longer. However, this month it was exactly 30 days. That was Friday the 15th.
So, I am starting this blog to reach out to others who might also be going through the same issue.
If nothing else, I hope it will be good therapy for me to get it off my chest.
As of right now it's day 5 of current cycle. Approximately 11 days to ovulation.
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