Tomorrow is Mother's Day. For some of you, today is Mother's Day. My feelings tonight are conflicted. I am so grateful for my amazing children. They bring such light and life into this world. I cannot begin to fathom the impact they will have on this world.
I share this joy with so many other moms who will bask in the wonder that is their offspring this holiday. Mother's Day is not just a day that children celebrate their mothers, but a day when mothers remember the time of pregnancy, labor, and most of all, the growth of their children.
What I also share in is the sadness that can accompany this holiday. I have a heavy heart tonight. I share a loss with so many women who have lost their babies. Both pre and post natal. My baby was only 8 weeks old when I lost it, though I carried that child for 11 weeks. That baby was mine. I will never know it. I will never get to see it grow. I can only await the time when we will be reunited in glory.
I share this heartbreak with so many women that I know personally. Good friends, and family. I am so fortunate that I have my boys to distract me from this sadness. But there are those women who don't have that luxury.
For you my heart is heavy. For you my heart aches. I do not have the words to fix your hurt. I do not have an answer for you. I can only say that I carry your hurt with me today and always. For you who long for a child, your time will come. You will hold tight to a little hand one day. To you who cannot bear to try again, you are strong, and kind, and whatever your heart desires I hope you get it. If it is fear that keeps you, know that fear is valid, but that you cannot let it own you. You are stronger than you think. But I understand. I understand not wanting to go through it again. Your feelings are valid, and they are not wrong.
I don't know the right words to say to you, but my heart is heavy for you.
